It’s 2020 y’all and I spent my New Year’s Eve in Ghana! Yup! I Brought in the new year in the motherland and I feel extremely blessed and filled with gratitude because of it. The experience was amazing. Out of all my trips in my lifetime, my trip to Africa has been the most memorable and meaningful. However, this post is not at all about the details of my time in Ghana (I’ll save that for another post), but in fact this post is about the beginning of this magical year, “2020” and a few things I plan to implement THIS YEAR!
I wouldn’t say I’ve been neglecting my blog, but instead I’d say … I’ve been running away from it. I lost a connection with my blog. My passion for writing had dwindled away, more so after my past relationship. I just couldn’t get back into the swing of things… CONSISTENTLY!
As a life and style blogger, I chose to include my Ex in my creative work. My blog went live when I started dating him and I encouraged him to explore his photography as I thought it was his passion (created him a photography page, and photography brand name) and he became my personal photographer. I even wrote a few blog posts that included him. I’m someone who does a lot of personal reflection and I realized that when I ended that relationship, some of the passion for my blog went with it. (It took a lot for me to admit that. Growth/Transparency).
What I’m saying is, I allowed someone into my creative space (I am an artist and I’m sensitive about my shit) and because I was vulnerable enough to include someone into my creative space, who I then realized didn’t deserve that… the fire passion for my blog went and I ran away from blogging and creating content consistently. I struggled to write posts because I was upset with myself for allowing this, which led me to be unforgiving toward myself, hard on myself, upset with myself for not progressing with my blog and later pushing my blog away. (Healed and Moving On!)
I thought that if I hired someone to revamp my blog that I would fall in Love with it again, but that only worked for a short period of time. I still didn’t have a connection with my blog and on top of that It was hard for me to manage my blog on the back end because I didn’t design it. Therefore, like a candle on the last of its wick, the passion died again.
Summer 2019, I tried to take ownership of my blog again and get into the groove, but it was super challenging. I began to analyze all that was wrong with it and I began to compare my blog to that of others. On top of that, I was angry with myself because I felt, “You could’ve been way further then where you’re at if you hadn’t allowed yourself to “temporarily quit”.
I say temporarily because Although I wasn’t in love with my blog and the passion wasn’t there to write anymore, I didn’t 100% give in to the idea of quitting. Instead I came to the realization that I need to ease the hell up off of myself, be kind, and revisit my creative space when my mind, soul and creative mojo was ready.
When I was in Ghana 🇬🇭 there was so much that I wanted to share and write about and I took it to my stories on Instagram. I took my time and was intentional about everything that I wanted to show for each day I was there. I was around other creatives and entrepreneurs that I was introduced to on my trip and I had a reawakening. I was encouraged and inspired by my surroundings and those in it. I got my 20/20 vision! *wink*
So I present to you the top 4 things that I’d like to execute in the magical year, “2020”:
- Consistency- with consistency breeds success. I’m naming this year, the year of “CONSISTENCY”. I want to push myself to be consistent with my passions and realistic with my goals. Beginning with simple goals like posting twice a month opposed to four times. I need to keep it real with my expectations until I can master managing my time between my passions and personal life (work).
- Meditation- I’ve began my practice of meditating more in 2019 and I want to continue to meditate and feed my spiritual journey in the year 2020. So far, I’ve used guided meditation to help me. The app I use is CALM and if I’m not meditating, I’m listening to affirmations/mantras before I sleep and when I wake in the morning. These practices help me with my anxiety (yup, I get anxious) and it helps me get a positive start of my day. This, I will continue.
- Remain AUTHENTIC! – I want to continue to be myself and be kind to myself. We are all on different journeys and we all have a special purpose in life. I want to stick to the gifts the universe has given me and be completely myself. It’s hard for me to be anything but me! I also understand that “REALNESS, HONESTY and TRANSPARENCY” can be hard for most to digest. However, I do not live my life to make others comfortable and my Blog, my life, my creativity (Art) is no one else’s but my own.
- SLAY ALL DAY- last but not least of all, SLAY! I’m not just talking about in style and fashion. I’m speaking about bringing my best self into whatever it is that I do! No matter what I think or how I feel.
Fast forward to 2020 and I’m like “B*tch get yo’ shit together!” I believe my passion to write again has ignited and I know that with consistency comes success.! I revamped my blog myself and I’m feeling great about it. That connection is there again.
Through my transparency and vulnerability. I hope to inspire at least one person to go out there and put in the work that you‘ve been holding off on because of life experiences. PUSH THROUGH the challenges and the emotions and let your passion continue to drive you. Everything is easier said than done, but we (humans) are capable of much more than we think.
HAPPY NEW YEAR IAMOSsquad!
You all are the real MVP’s! Thank you for ALL of your support and encouragement to keep going!
More to come on the Blog 😉!
Until next time,
Peace. love. Style.