Want to know why i’ve been away from my blog for so long?
I’ve been sitting in an uninspired funk for sometime…
Although I relaunched my blog in August, it has been super hard for me to write any blog post or even be creative most times. Its like having writers block, but not just about writing, CREATING! I can admit that I’ve also gotten kind of lazy in the funk too, a sort of comfort maybe and/or discouragement? Not to sure, but I am aware that to be a successful blogger consistency is KEY. Remaining consistent has been my biggest challenge with blogging! Its super easy to snap a photo and post it on instagram, but writing a blog post of quality, editing, revising, adding links and photos… If you aren’t motivated to do it… it ain’t happenin’!
My perfectionist personality doesn’t help one bit either. I am learning how not to expect everything to be perfect and just, just … do things! Just post it, just write it, just wear it! But the longer I sit and think about doing something, I began to over analyze it and then put it on hold and then not do it at all. It wasn’t always like this ya know, but if i’m being quite honest with myself, I’ve allowed life happenings, uncertainty, disappointment and changes to put my motivation at a halt.
This post in particular, I started drafting in October. Yes, October! Ridiculous right? and here we are now about to approach Christmas and the new year and Ive finally got a bit of inspiration to finish this blog post. *le sigh*
After some time of debating with myself, forgiving myself for allowing negative energy to fill my space and leave me stagnant; after some surface level soul searching and a push from my mentor… I’m here, about to hit the publish button once again.
One thing I learned is no matter what, be kind to myself. Even when i’m uninspired, unmotivated and feeling lazy, be kind to ME. The expectations that I set for myself can often leave me disappointed when i’m not moving at my “desired pace”, but i’m human and life happens. I had to listen to my body, I was feeling overwhelmed, overworked, and just down right tired and I needed to heal from some things and slow down.
In the midst of my funk, I realized that being an influencer (Micro or Major) is an experience of growth! Social Media these days will have you thinking you aren’t doing shit when you just needed a break for a day. Lets not get into comparison! Comparison on any level is the enemy, especially for anyone who was in a funk like myself. So, what did I do? I had to find that little bit of strength to push myself into discomfort because I was comfortable in my funk, but I didn’t want to be comfortable permanently. I took baby steps. Got dolled up, took a photo here and there, wrote a sentence or two in the notes on my phone, wrote a small goal I wanted to accomplish each week, wether it was to just take some photos even if i don’t post them or put a bit more effort into getting dressed for work, or taking a walk around my neighborhood; anything that was going to inspired me and cleanse my funk in the slightest, I did and I took my time.
My mantra for myself is to enjoy the road in which I travel and embrace my journey, even when I feel stuck between a rock and an uninspired place. Most importantly, Self love and self preservation being set as a primary goal while embracing my journey. So here I am…
Until Next Time,
Peace. Love. Style.